I'll find you again, I promise

 

Sr Prom

 

  

Will it end? No he still is next door.

 

Stuck...

 

I will always be yours.

 

Hopelessly Romantic

 So I do my best to have one main account on every platform and sometimes I'll make another account. TikTok is one of the platforms I have a couple accounts due to what they are about. The last videos I uploaded were from an account that I started to do a little more diving into my history. I then hid the videos because even though I am a survivor of all types of abuse and I am sharing my story to maybe help or save someone else, I had plenty of people reporting the videos. 

This video I am sharing now is another one I made in hopes of hiding a different story I have to tell. A love story that changed my life. I wanted to share my story without having to put faces to the people I talk about should someone I knew find the account. Sadly I only made one video before I was sidetracked, I would later be spending more time with the main person I am talking about in this video. 

Enjoy.

Part of me wants to re write the whole thing like a story, mostly truth but with some flex to keep the story interesting. 

Not sure yet...

YouTube

 This is old old old.... but still covers some back story.

TikTok

Here are the TikTok videos I made with text. I also have the ones I made while walking I may upload those as well I haven't decided yet.

Broken

 It has been quite a long time since I have written much of anything. my journals always come out sad and seem to always do more harm than good. So much has changed since the last time I used this site. For a brief moment I had the perfect life, no really I had damn near a perfect life.... for two years. 

I find myself having the urge to write more mostly because I have an issue, remembering a lot. More now than ever. This last January was my turning point, I found myself in an extremely traumatic situation. 

Before I get into details on that I am going to try and recover maybe memories that may matter. I will try my best, not sure how it will turn out or how this is going to start. It may vary day to day depending on where my brain is. I am still struggling just to function at the bare minimum everyday. 

Honestly I just want it to be over, I am so tired. 

I have plenty of bad things that have happened to me as well, I was uploading it all to tiktok, I would go for a walk and try to record the walk and just tell my story best I could.

Perhaps I could recover those and post them just to have them on record. At one point I was trying to get as much on record as I could to protect myself. I had tried talking to a lawyer but she didn't really help as all.  

I feel like I should maybe start there, yeah its all bad stuff... but to get it out there and you have a little back story maybe. since it is all ready done then I shouldn't need to try and recall anything.

I am going to go hunt them all down or try to and Ill upload them later. Just remember I have no Idea where this is going or what it will be come. I don't know if it will stay like a journal or if I will morph it more into like a story just to try and distance myself a little.