Broken

 It has been quite a long time since I have written much of anything. my journals always come out sad and seem to always do more harm than good. So much has changed since the last time I used this site. For a brief moment I had the perfect life, no really I had damn near a perfect life.... for two years. 

I find myself having the urge to write more mostly because I have an issue, remembering a lot. More now than ever. This last January was my turning point, I found myself in an extremely traumatic situation. 

Before I get into details on that I am going to try and recover maybe memories that may matter. I will try my best, not sure how it will turn out or how this is going to start. It may vary day to day depending on where my brain is. I am still struggling just to function at the bare minimum everyday. 

Honestly I just want it to be over, I am so tired. 

I have plenty of bad things that have happened to me as well, I was uploading it all to tiktok, I would go for a walk and try to record the walk and just tell my story best I could.

Perhaps I could recover those and post them just to have them on record. At one point I was trying to get as much on record as I could to protect myself. I had tried talking to a lawyer but she didn't really help as all.  

I feel like I should maybe start there, yeah its all bad stuff... but to get it out there and you have a little back story maybe. since it is all ready done then I shouldn't need to try and recall anything.

I am going to go hunt them all down or try to and Ill upload them later. Just remember I have no Idea where this is going or what it will be come. I don't know if it will stay like a journal or if I will morph it more into like a story just to try and distance myself a little.